Papa,
Where to begin...Today is my 25th birthday. We've been apart for what 16 years. I'll admit somethings have been hard while other times have just been minor pot holes in my road called life. I've come to a point in my life where I feel lost again. Not so much lost about what I want to do. I have goal of paying off my debt by the end of the year and by this time next year I want to get a house, I think you'd be proud of me.
Where I'm noticing the lost feeling is my heart. I've lost it once to you and since then I thought I found a void for the missing piece to my heart...only to find that that hole was in the shape of a square and my replacement puzzle piece was a circle. Its amazing how long the blind will follow a knowing path before finally giving in to their lost hope of finding their sight.
As I sit here alone on my birthday I can't quiet stop the tears. How can a person feel so much love for being recognized for there day on this earth and yet feel so much sadness in the same breath.
I can't regret things that I should have done cause at the time of my decisions in life I make them the right choice for that particular moment. I can only move forward, can never go back. As much as I wish and hope, I know its not feasible.
I hate sounding so much like a pity party, but sometimes I just want to scream up to the heavens and say can I have just one last hug.
Love~Loves
Papa's Princess
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